Cycle Day 3

I love my boss. She works with me on time off for this process, and I want to give her a shout out even though this blog is anonymous. My supervisor on the other hand... She must have nothing better to do than harass employees who do a good job. It's pathetic. Today's tangent is the same as yesterday, giving folks a hard time about computer games. Okay, last month I had the third highest sales in the office of 30, so leave me the fuck alone. I do a good job, get along with others, like the company, etc. I am not in the mood for any bull.

I am not pregnant, give me some space, I want to cry, my period is here and it looks like someone was murdered between my legs, it's so bad, but that's lame. No matter how gay friendly someone is, if you are gay and TTC folks don't treat you the same. My mom is trying to be supportive, but each time I turn up not pregnant, she says something like, you know 'regular' people have sex day and night to get pregnant, you are only taking one shot a month. Ugh. I have straight coworkers TTC, each month they turn up not preggo it's a damn seance to conjure positive energy. Now, don't get me wrong, I know this sounds bitter. But I'm not bitter, I'm just sad. There are good people out there who are kind and considerate. It's just that my supervisor isn't one of those people.

Okay, I feel better now that I got that off my chest. I can't wait for the appointment tomorrow. My partner tries to go to every appointment with me, but I think j's got to go to work. Oh, well, we need the money for this freaking endeavor. I can handle it on my own. I think.

My mom's bday is friday and that was when we were supposed to test. I didn't get to test last cycle, so I feel let down. Like I spent all this money, and didn't even get to take a freaking pregnancy test. what the fuck?

IF we get the go-ahead for this next cycle, we'd be finding out around my partner's bday and that would be a lovely gift- the p word.